Tonight I sit in an airport awaiting a delayed flight with a full heart and tearful eyes.
This past weekend I was privileged to attend my bridal shower planned by the most amazing bridesmaids and maid of honor imaginable. The event was beautiful, and to be honest I couldn’t have asked for anything better. I felt incredibly loved, and those in attendance were so generous I left with an entire car full of gifts to start a new life with my husband in just three and a half months.
As I look back, I can’t believe how fast these five days have passed; you always wish something to come as soon as possible, and then when it does, it flashes before your eyes and all of a sudden it’s over! So while my heart may be full, my vision is a little blurred with tears.
It’s always difficult for me to fly back to Florida. Although Melbourne is my new home, Columbus will always hold a special place in my life. It’s where I was raised, went to school, met my husband, and formed friendships that I am confident will last a lifetime. Sitting here and reflecting tightens my chest, and not because of the chilly weather up here!
This morning I woke up and decided to crack open the Word. One of the first verses that caught my attention was in Psalms 27:
“My heart has heard you say, ‘Come and talk with me.’ And my heart responds, ‘Lord, I am coming.'” (Psalms 27:8 NLT)
It is so comforting and uplifting to know that whenever I feel depressed, alone, and it seems like there is no one to talk to, I can ALWAYS turn to the Lord.
He desperately desires for us to talk with Him like a close friend! And this has been something I’ve needed for a long time.
Lately I have been struggling with thoughts of abandonment and feeling alone, and while I know those voices are from Satan trying to trip me up, it still really sucks! It’s so easy to listen to what’s inside your head when sometimes it’s truly all you can hear: you’ll never be enough. You don’t have any friends! Why do you think it’s worth it to get out of the house? No one wants to hang out with you! They’re not inviting you because they don’t care. See? You don’t have any friends. Just give up on them. They don’t care about you.
Seriously ladies, these voices are so hurtful! Know you’re NOT alone in your struggles! As I continued to read, another verse stuck out to me in Psalms 31:
“I will be glad and rejoice in your unfailing love, for you have seen my troubles, and you care about the anguish of my soul.” (Psalms 31:7 NLT)
GOD CARES ABOUT THE ANGUISH OF YOUR SOUL! When you are afraid, He hears you! When you are lonely, He is with you! When you just want to talk to someone, He is there!
So tonight, as I wait for my delayed-even-further flight, I wait patiently for the Lord. I know this heartache will come to an end, but in that waiting I will be faithful. It may totally suck, but it’s the only thing I can do.
“For if we are faithful to the end, trusting God just as firmly as when we first believed, we will share in all that belongs to Christ.” (Hebrews 3:14 NLT)