What If?

What if I don’t feel God’s presence when I need it most?

What if my family and friends abandon me during the worst part of my life?

What if I end up alone?

What if I fail my exam?

What if he doesn’t like me?

What if our pregnancy ends in a miscarriage?

What if my entire life is in vain?

Those “what if’s” haunt me and I know they haunt you too. Day in and day out we are bombarded with doubts, desperate to wrench us apart from our faith and leave us drowning in a well.

Do you feel like you’ve been drowning lately?

I know I have.

Friends, let me be frank with you: it’s not all rainbows, butterflies, and puppies over here (although our dog just loves to revert back to his puppy nature on occasion). It’s full of tears, questions, and screams of frustration.

But one thing remains: prayer.

At my grandmother’s funeral earlier this year, a quote was shared with the congregation in attendance, and it’s especially sticking out to me today.

“All I can do is pray,

but I can do that.”

Doris Hartsook, 1933-2019

Sorrow streams down my face as I type these words. She was a prayer warrior through and through, and I always knew I could count on her if I was struggling with something and needed it lifted up to the Lord. She truly lived out 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18.

Now that this is etched into my heart, it happens to resurface anytime I am caught in a season of “what if’s”. She reminded me that no matter our circumstances, God has an answer for it.

We don’t have the fix or solution. He does.

It may not be exactly what we hope for, but it’s much better than we think.

So next time you find yourself worrying about tomorrow, remember Matthew 6:34, and if you want, write my grandma’s quote on your mirror.

Sometimes all we can do is pray, but we can do that.